In this riveting novel in verse, thirteen-year-old Tolly fears she was to blame for the accident that killed her older sister. If she could just get her phone back, she might find answers about the day Sunny died …

 

It's been almost six months since Tolly's sister died in a distracted driving wreck.

 

Tolly misses Sunny every minute of every day, but is it wrong to want a semi-normal birthday? What about a new phone, to replace the one she lost soon after the accident? Instead, she gets grieving parents and a disappointing, misspelled cake.

 

And so Tolly is stuck starting eighth grade without a phone in hand, without answers to the endless questions she has about her sister's death. Why did it happen … How did it happen … Was it Tolly's fault? She just needs her old phone back to uncover the truth. 

 

Ironically, thanks to being phoneless, Tolly gets put in charge of a new Luddite club at school, for kids who want to avoid technology. It's the last place she expected to find herself, but it turns out to be a powerful escape from the unrelenting guilt she feels over Sunny's death—and it might just be the place for her to get those answers, too. 

 

Acclaimed poet Caroline Brooks DuBois brings one family's healing into the light in a compelling novel in verse that speaks to this generation's messy feelings about technology, as well as the timeless complications of being a teenager.

 

'This powerful verse novel brims with poignancy, intricate details, and beautiful sentences, painting a portrait of a guilt-ridden teenager and a family coming to grips with tragedy. … Divided into four parts, the book is thoughtfully rendered, with complex characters and a plot that etches out the inevitable feeling of lingering guilt that comes in the aftermath of loss.'—Kirkus Reviews (starred review)