Between Selves: After Collapse, Before Coherence

This audiobook is narrated by a digital voice.

A Record of Living Unfinished

After a breakdown, identity loosens. The old self becomes unrecognisable and the new one has not yet arrived.

Between Selves is a record of that liminal space: the plateau after collapse, before coherence.

Written from the perspective of a late-diagnosed autistic adult, these essays trace what remains when long-term social performance falls away. They explore masking, burnout, emotional regulation, and the legitimacy of one’s own perceptions, alongside the social pressures that shape these experiences.

They blend autistic perceptual insight with existential enquiry, examining how perception distorts under pressure and what it means to live without a settled sense of self.

This is not a narrative of triumph or recovery, but of suspension: unevenly inhabiting life after collapse. It speaks to anyone who has felt unmade and found themselves living without a settled sense of who they are yet to be.

Less a guide than a field record, Between Selves looks at rupture, disorientation, and what it means to live through continual adaptation.