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Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny

Unabridged Audiobook

Written By: Holly Madison

Narrated By: Holly Madison

Publisher: HarperAudio

Date: June 2015

Duration: 10 hours 52 minutes


The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door
A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.


  • Christine Colone

    I was a little skeptical at first, but this book turned out to be AWESOME. When I was younger I watched "The Girls Next Door" so that's how I knew about Holly, but I had no idea what the behind the scenes was actually like. This gives you insight into her actual life and into the life in the mansion, not the glamour everyone thought it was. It's also surprisingly relatable (not that I was a bunny or in playboy or anything of the sorts) in what she's been through and where she started. I'd definitely recommend this book to anyone thinking about reading it!

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful.

  • Heather K.

    I found this book very entertaining and interesting. I would have had no idea some of the things that went on in the Mansion without Holly's stories. I think this book is well written and a must.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • Elizabeth Krijnen

    I loved this book, it provided an interesting view into a life behind the mansion walls!

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • teddi adams

    Thought I would not get through this book but was pleasantly surprised. Holly did a good job narrating it. Pity she had so little self esteem that she needed reaffirmation from such self centered man as Hugh Heffner and Chris Angel and that it took more than 10years to create her own path of success. Dreading between the lines, I think Holly should be respected for the way she shares information about living at the mansion and Heffs megalomaniac tendencies. So typical of the male species. On the other hand, I just wanted to shake her for accepting the situation at the mansion. All in all, not a bad "read" - liked the introduction of each chapter with a references from "Down the rabbit hole".

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • Nancy Mitchell Ash

    Poor Holly, the only "girlfriend" who was not mean to others. Although I sympathize with the conditions, if true, under which these women lived, it seems to me that taking seven years to wake up to being abused daily is a little long. I hate to say it, but reading between the lines, the whole arrangement was sleazy from the beginning, with the key to living at the mansion was to sleep with old Heff at the get-do. Listening to the book, like watching "The Girls Next Door," was like picking scabs, painful but strangely compelling.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • Kimberly Cervantes

    She is amazing... I loved listening to her telling her own story. I felt I was walking with her through each chapter of her life. To learn what really happened in the Bunny house and to triumph and succeed on her own. I see Mr. Puffin in a whole new light... He is a bully pulling strings.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • Juliette Vilot

    Interesting listen and a " behind the scenes" look at life in the mansion. Holly 's tale is provocative, surprising and sheds new light on the not so glamorous life of a Playboy Playmate. I thoroughly enjoyed this book.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • Alena Martin

    I really enjoyed this book! It was interesting right away from the first page you're hooked. It includes all the juicy details you're hoping to hear as a reader. Certain parts actually made me gasp out loud! Holly was really easy to listen to as a narrator. The only thing I was disappointed with was towards the end of the book it became dull at times compared to the shocking information revealed during the first half of the book. I would still absolutely recommend this book, it was very entertaining.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • Claire Owens

    I loved it! I've never seen the Show Girls Next Door nor am I a big fan of Playboy, but I thought, "why no?" It feels like you're sitting down in your room and Holly is just your friend telling a story. A really juicy, interesting story. She's so down to earth, humble and a lot nicer than I expected. She also changes her voice when she's quoting different people. 5 stars!

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful.

  • Helen E.

    Holy has totally written this to clearly make herself look innocent and naive all the while throwing everyone under the bus!

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