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Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny

Unabridged Audiobook

Written By: Holly Madison

Narrated By: Holly Madison

Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers

Date: June 2015

Duration: 10 hours 52 minutes


The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door
A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.


  • Christine Colone

    I was a little skeptical at first, but this book turned out to be AWESOME. When I was younger I watched "The Girls Next Door" so that's how I knew about Holly, but I had no idea what the behind the scenes was actually like. This gives you insight into her actual life and into the life in the mansion, not the glamour everyone thought it was. It's also surprisingly relatable (not that I was a bunny or in playboy or anything of the sorts) in what she's been through and where she started. I'd definitely recommend this book to anyone thinking about reading it!

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  • Heather K.

    I found this book very entertaining and interesting. I would have had no idea some of the things that went on in the Mansion without Holly's stories. I think this book is well written and a must.

  • Kim s

    This book is very eye opening and interesting. Even taking it with a grain of salt it was still shocking and a great glimpse of the playboy mansion. I would definitely recommend for anyone interested in holly, girls next door or playboy.

  • Courtney B

    Love this book and Holly Madison. Her books are very enjoyable and would easily recommend.

  • Kerri B

    I found it fascinating and made a lot of sense from what was on Girls next Door. Congrats to Holly.

  • Seraphina B

    I finally had the opportunity of reading this inspiring book. I don't know why I waited so long to read it. Like other millions of viewers I was also a fan of girls next-door. Holly cleared up a lot about life in the mansion, questions I had about it, and the ups and downs.

  • Liza Dittmar

    After reading this book I now think holly is a self absorbed self centrerd woman who i don't like at all. She always seems to be the common denominator in any drama taking place and have lost all interest and respect for her. Won't ever follow her news again

  • Elizabeth Krijnen

    I loved this book, it provided an interesting view into a life behind the mansion walls!

  • teddi adams

    Thought I would not get through this book but was pleasantly surprised. Holly did a good job narrating it. Pity she had so little self esteem that she needed reaffirmation from such self centered man as Hugh Heffner and Chris Angel and that it took more than 10years to create her own path of success. Dreading between the lines, I think Holly should be respected for the way she shares information about living at the mansion and Heffs megalomaniac tendencies. So typical of the male species. On the other hand, I just wanted to shake her for accepting the situation at the mansion. All in all, not a bad "read" - liked the introduction of each chapter with a references from "Down the rabbit hole".

  • Daisy Castro

    This book is a must for any fan of The Girls Next Door, Holly's World, or Playboy. This is a glimpse into the world of a former playboy bunny. It definitely puts Holly's life in perspective. From "scripted" reality show, to emotions of a girl in her 20's caught in a "taboo" relationship. Having her as the narrator helps to add something extra to the experience of this book. The only reason I didn't give it 5 stars, is because by the end I feel that it truly was a biased compilation of stories. I feel as if it was a bit self-serving, which causes me to question the genuineness of the book.

Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny

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