“Fun as hell...An anthem for living and loving with abandon.” —Chelsea Bieker, author of Godshot

“Hudson’s writing is magnetic. It’s the Kristen Stewart of prose—chameleon-like, layered, funny and serious and sad, really gay, and so attractive...It wrecked me, just like I wanted.” —Them, on Boys of Alabama

From the acclaimed author of Boys of Alabama comes a propulsive and sexy novel about difficult decisions, bad timing, and the one who got away.

From the outside, Reed has a great life. She lives in Amsterdam, works a great job as a “creative” at a Dutch ad agency, and has a caring, driven girlfriend with whom she is trying to conceive a child. But, below the surface not everything is as it seems.

Through a series of small choices and little compromises, Reed has lost sight of who she is and what she wants. A trip home to Charleston to attend her best friend’s wedding makes her wonder—who were those choices and compromises for?

When Reed is confronted with a long-lost love, she is faced with questions she can’t avoid. What kind of person does she want to be: one who plays it safe or takes risks? What life will she live, a comfortable or ambitious one? And, which part of her will set the terms for her life: her anxiety or her truest desires?