If Only

Two lives. One story. Bound by fear, divided by circumstance.


If Only is a deeply emotive and gripping tale of two young women, Zoe and Ellen, navigating their personal battles in a world that feels both unkind and overwhelming. Their lives are separated by circumstance, yet their stories intertwine in ways neither could have anticipated.

Zoe Brown is a thoughtful teenager burdened by anxiety and the daily pressures of fitting in. Battling feelings of isolation, she hides her struggles behind a mask, yearning for acceptance in a world that seems to overlook her. Through her humour and resilience, Zoe’s story shines a light on the hidden challenges faced by many young people today.

Ellen Maclaren’s reality is harsher—a chaotic and abusive home where she fights to protect her baby sister. Forced to grow up too fast, Ellen’s tale is one of courage and survival, where love is her driving force amidst unthinkable adversity.

As their journeys unfold through alternating perspectives, If Only explores themes of mental health, trauma, resilience, and the transformative power of human connection. Bethany Lunney weaves a raw, heart-wrenching narrative that ultimately leaves readers uplifted and inspired by the light that can emerge from even the darkest moments.


This book is perfect for readers who love contemporary fiction exploring mental health, coming-of-age struggles, and emotional resilience.


Step into the lives of two unforgettable young women and discover a story of survival, hope, and the unbreakable human spirit. Listen to If Only today and let their journey inspire yours!