I should be dead—many times over. Dr. Rand Floyd seemed to have it all: a distinguished career as a neuroradiologist, a family, and the confidence that comes from a life built by rules and achievement. Then COVID arrived, and with it an anxiety that quietly dismantled the life he’d constructed. In this raw, unvarnished memoir, Dr. Floyd takes readers inside the small panic triggers, the intrusive thoughts, and the desperate moments when suicide felt like the only answer. More than a personal reckoning, this book is a witness to how mental illness visits the accomplished and the ordinary alike, and how inadequate care, stigma, and isolation deepen the wound. Equal parts memoir and critique, it offers hope—hard-won and honest—and practical insight for anyone coping with anxiety, compulsions, or the long aftermath of trauma. Brave, humane, and clarifying, My Mental Health Story reminds us that asking for help is not weakness but survival.