This audiobook is narrated by an AI Voice. “Again?! Not another gender swap! Take me back to my body!”

I had everything a man could want. Money. Fame. A Santa Monica mansion. A retired football legend’s body. Women who still looked at me like I was the prize. Then my fiancée said no. Her reason was simple: I did not love women. I loved being admired by them.

Drunk, furious, and humiliated, I screamed at the ocean, demanding to know what the universe wanted from me. Then I crashed my Lamborghini. When I woke up, I was no longer Grey Watkins.

First, I became Tara Hereford, the stunning Manhattan PR queen who had once been the shy high school girl I humiliated for her body. Then I became Bea Warsaw, the exhausted woman whose heart I had broken with a goodbye written on the back of a pizza receipt.

And then I woke up as Gretchen Winters. Gretchen was not glamorous. She was not powerful. She was a forty-two-year-old transgender woman six months into transition, living in a small Chicago apartment with sage green curtains, scrapbooks, hormone reminders, and a quiet job at a dental clinic. There was no robot voice this time. No deadline. No explanation. Just Gretchen’s life.

And Dr. Martin Forks, the kind, patient dentist who already knew Gretchen as a friend… and might have been the first man to love her exactly as she was becoming.

I wanted my old life back. At least, I thought I did. But the more I lived as Gretchen, the more I learned that womanhood was not punishment. It was not beauty, suffering, or being wanted by men. Sometimes, it was a cardigan. A name. A slow kiss. A hand held with care.