NOMINATED FOR THE INDEPENDENT AUDIOBOOK AWARD 2019 - LGBTQ+ Category

French male model Simeon Duchamp has a lot of explaining to do. Two years after a breakdown Simeon is off the drugs and booze and he wants to stay that way. On the road to reclaiming his life and modeling career, Sim first needs to apologize to the man he hurt the most -his ex-best friend and object of his unrequited affection. Pieter Bayer. Pieter now has a long-term partner, artist Emily Raven, with whom he shares a baby son. Sim is amazed when Pieter accepts his apology, and invites him into his family. Closeness to Pieter sees Simeon's longing for his friend is rekindled. But then, when Simeon meets an attractive older man, Bastian Roth at an art exhibition, he realizes that there exists a soul more broken than his and Simeon feels compelled to help. Simeon's connection with the troubled Bastian Roth turns his world upside down.

He has to decide whether to allow himself to fall for the man who wants him or pine for the man he can never have.