This Box of Darkness

I’m eighteen and faced with the most difficult decision of my life:


- Do I follow my crush to the missionary Bible school of my dreams?
- Do I go to college with my ex-boyfriend to see if we still have a future?
- Or do I stay home with my dad who's just been diagnosed with a brain tumor?

Pick one door. Close the others. Live with the fallout.


This Box of Darkness is a raw coming-of-age memoir about love, loss, and learning to trust God. Told through the eyes of Maddie, a pastor’s kid who’s been “saved” for as long as she can remember, it traces the final year of her father’s life: a Marine turned youth pastor and missionary who lived to glorify God, even as brain cancer stripped everything away. Poignant and deeply personal, this memoir explores what it means to wrestle with God when your carefully laid plans completely fall apart.