From an author with a psychology background, a candid memoir about the interior of her own psychotic episode.

After the culture shock of moving from a small Wisconsin town to the tumult of Los Angeles in 1967, Linda's family disintegrates: her parents decide to divorce, and she and her younger brother, Brian, suddenly must fend for themselves. While she finds a foothold in academic pursuits, Brian spirals downward into schizophrenia and, finally, commits an irrevocable act. Plagued with guilt, Linda loses her sense of purpose, abandons a promising career in psychology, and finds herself in a life she never envisioned—poor, alcoholic, an accidental parent in an unhappy marriage, feeling invisible and alone.

When Linda sees a psychologist, Sam, he helps her recover what she has lost: her sense of self. Feeling truly seen, she falls in love with him and suspects her feelings might be reciprocated but can't be certain. This ambiguity, mingled with other overwhelming stresses, triggers her descent into a psychotic episode—one that echoes her dreams, Brian's experience, and Sam's own phobia. Will Linda follow in her brother's footsteps, or will this episode prove to be the wake-up call she needs to change course?