What If? What If?: A Story About OCD and Love

She’s spent her life avoiding her fears over and over again. Now she has to face them.

Jasmine’s mind never stops asking ‘what if?’ questions. For years, she’s kept her intrusive thoughts at bay – but control isn't the same as freedom. When a forgotten diary surfaces, it pulls her and her friends into a story from decades ago, one of courage, heartbreak, and a story that offers answers to the present. 

What If? What If? is a character-driven and deeply human New Zealand novel which offers an authentic glimpse into the hidden reality of OCD and intrusive thoughts, far beyond the stereotypes. It’s a story of friendship where love shows up in surprising, everyday ways – and of how intergenerational connections can help us find healing.