Unabridged Audiobook
My mom unalived herself when I was 10 years old. I found her. I’ve spent 24 years angry with her. Philosophical pessimism took most of it away. After years of therapy and illusions of hope couldn't help with my own ideations. Yet I am too afraid to do it. Which this theory is revealing to me. But I am still angry that she didn't conceptualize the value in staying for me. It meant something to me. Even if it didn't mean anything to her. I am now making the choice to go to school for psychology and become a suicidologist. Because of Thomas. Will it mean anything? Who's to say? But maybe I can make a contribution that will make a difference like this book made a difference for me. Probably not. But it's a reason to keep going.
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