This audiobook is narrated by an AI Voice. Amy Sosne was a twenty-six year old physician, a once nationally ranked tennis player, married at twenty-three to her loving husband, Ben; she was constantly in motion and successful, and a beloved resident of colleagues and patients. She seemed to have it all together. Amy was a psychiatric resident when she suffered a breakdown that led to her own journey with mental health treatment related to sexual abuse she suffered as a child. Her memoir provides the harrowing details and story of how Amy Sosne, MD, faced the challenges and turbulence of her world shattered with just one trigger and the domino effect of traumas that completely changed her life, perspective, and eventually allowed for healing. The memoir tells of her childhood sexual abuse, her own triggers in adulthood, her vulnerability to others and institutions that controlled her freedom, and her challenges with infertility.

In this raw and highly personal and vulnerable account, Sosne incorporates flashbacks from her childhood while undergoing multiple procedures and facing the tragic journey and outcome of a quintuplet pregnancy. This captivating memoir provides insight, comfort, and evidence that it is instinctive and necessary to survive without judgment, but with exhaling the danger that threatens our core and soul, we can inhale life and the option to move forward and heal.

She is now the mother of three thriving children and works in integrative wellness, consulting on trauma-informed education as well as developing yoga and mindfulness programs in higher education, elementary education, and within the community.