The Year After Kahlia: Surviving, Loving and Writing My Way Through Loss

What do you do when the unthinkable happens - and it happens to your child?

The Year After Kahlia is a raw and unfiltered memoir of the first twelve months after losing my daughter to suicide. It’s not a polished healing journey; it’s survival, it’s the truth most people are too afraid to say out loud.

Across a year of shock, numbness, guilt, anger, love, and unbearable longing, I take you inside the real experience of grief; the kind that changes your brain, your body, your identity, and your place in the world.

But this book is more than a story.

I explain what is actually happening inside you when grief hits; your nervous system, your hormones, your thoughts, your memory, your sleep, your body’s survival responses. I give you the language for things that often feel unspeakable.

And alongside each chapter, I offer gentle journal prompts, grounding tools, and reflection questions - practical ways to stay tethered to yourself when everything feels impossible.

This audiobook is for anyone who has lost someone they can’t imagine living without.

It’s for suicide-loss parents, supporters, and anyone wanting to understand grief from the inside out.

I don’t offer silver linings.

I don’t minimise the pain.

I simply tell the truth - with love, with courage, and with the hope that you feel less alone in your own ache.

If you’ve ever thought, “No one else gets it,”

I hope this book proves that someone does.